Here's the truth about destiny: you cannot trick your way into it.
True destiny is more than accomplishments and a worldly view of success: it's also joy, peace, and a level of contentment that only presents itself when you are doing what I call "soul work".
You can succeed in doing a lot of things, but you cannot be satisfied until you do the work that is meant for you.
A sign that you are not doing soul work is the need for constant busyness. You try to overload yourself so that the work serves as a distraction from the gnawing voices that keep asking you why you aren't doing what you should be.
Walking the path of destiny is difficult, but ignoring destiny is heartbreaking and much more painful than any growth you have to experience while becoming who your destiny requires you to be.
I know it's scary because you don't know what the next step is until you take the first one, but courage is not the absence of fear - it's the willingness to move forward in spite of the fear.
Just be yourself. Do what you were created to do. Start little by little every day with what you have, and eventually what you have will grow as you grow in the ability to handle it.
As always, I'm rooting for you, I believe in you, and I want you to be happy no matter what.